Well, here's my story. After losing over 130 pounds over the course of 2 years with just diet and exercise, I had somewhat of a nervous breakdown. I was pretty much at my goal. I could walk into a store and buy a size small or size 6 and not think twice about it, and I still wasn't happy.
I hated my body. I was so depressed and miserable even though I'm not sure anyone really saw that in me. I could run 10 miles and not think twice about it. I had 2 gorgeous kids and a loving husband at home and I should have been on top of the world. I had everything I thought I wanted and yet I can't remember another time when I felt so bad. I was to the point where I was constantly anxious and every time I got in a car I had the urge to drive it off the road. I eventually hit my breaking point where Matt forced me to get help. I needed it and I wasn't in my right mind enough to even realize how bad I had gotten. At the end of May, I changed my life. I went into a doctor's office and admitted I needed help. After an hour of discussing medications, life situations, and the possibility of being hospitalized if the initial treatment didn't work...we had a plan. I started out on 3 medications. Two for depression and one for anxiety. It was 3 medications, but with everything I was taking it added up to 8 pills a day. After about a week I felt a noticeable difference. When my doctor called to check on me I was able to say that I felt much better. After 2 weeks I started to feel like me again. After 4 weeks I made some major life decisions that were definitely for the better. That was 5 months ago...
And that leads me to now. I need to lose 35 pounds again, but I'm happy. I no longer walk around being afraid of unreasonable things. I can logically work through a situation without being in tears. I don't drink. Ever. Not even a little bit. I still take an anti-depressent, but it's only one pill once a day. Oh, and we moved 5.5 hours away from everything familiar to us, and we LOVE it! But those 35 pounds? They need to be gone! I know what it takes to lose weight obviously. I know what I need to do and how to be successful at it. I know how my body works and how much I have to want it in order to be successful. But, this time I am in a much better place mentally. That's where this blog comes in. I will lose these pounds with a goal date of June 8, 2012. Here we go...again.
And that leads me to now. I need to lose 35 pounds again, but I'm happy. I no longer walk around being afraid of unreasonable things. I can logically work through a situation without being in tears. I don't drink. Ever. Not even a little bit. I still take an anti-depressent, but it's only one pill once a day. Oh, and we moved 5.5 hours away from everything familiar to us, and we LOVE it! But those 35 pounds? They need to be gone! I know what it takes to lose weight obviously. I know what I need to do and how to be successful at it. I know how my body works and how much I have to want it in order to be successful. But, this time I am in a much better place mentally. That's where this blog comes in. I will lose these pounds with a goal date of June 8, 2012. Here we go...again.
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