This sucks

Sitting here at my doctor's office and everyone is here for pregnancy ultrasounds this morning. I don't want to be jealous and hateful, but it's really hard to see couple after couple parade in and out of here with their baby pictures. They have what I want and it's so hard to not be jealous that they got their babies and I'm still here. Most of the time I do ok, but when it's right there in your face its a lot harder. These aren't my friends. My friends I am thrilled for! I love seeing them happy! These are just couples getting what I want. And today it sucks.