Terrified, but Hopeful

Today we sat down with a new doctor for over an hour and went over everything in my chart. It was honestly a very hard experience. Much more so than I thought it would be. We had to discuss every single miscarriage and all the gory details. We didn't even fully discuss treatments. It took us the whole hour plus some just to cover the past miscarriages and testing we need done. So today I had 15 vials of blood drawn. And it's just round 1. I have to go back on CD 3 for more. She is testing our chromosome compatibility, some clotting disorders, and some other autoimmune things. IF everything comes back fine from those then we will move forward with a fresh ivf cycle in several months. I have to get my thyroid level to be around 2 (tsh) for 30 days before we can cycle most likely. Also, we will do a different protocol. First I will have a saline sono to flush all old lining out of my uterus, then I will do a long lupron (God I hate lupron) cycle with a short stimulation period (9 days) with the goal of 15-20 eggs. I will also have to take steroids during my first trimester most likely in order to fight the autoimmune disorder. It's beyond overwhelming for me. I did not want to do another fresh cycle. I still wouldn't say I'm thrilled about it, but this woman is crazy smart and has ivf babies herself. She gives me hope. I'm slightly terrified of another ivf, ohss, another pregnancy, another loss... If anyone can make this work though, I believe it's her.