For Real?

There are not even words to describe how messed up everything is right now. My retrieval was beyond awful. I woke up crying and in so much pain I could barely speak. I don't think I've ever hurt so bad in my entire life, and I've given birth to 2 children. It took several hours to get things under control, and I use that term loosely. Then I woke up this morning (after very little sleep) and realized I gained 8 pounds overnight. Not good. So now I have OHSS, but it's only moderate so I get to stay home at this point chugging Gatorade and popping Tylenol 3 like candy. And then comes the fun part! Dr. G wanted to freeze everything today and do the transfer next month. I knew this was coming and I was prepared to fight him on it, except I was all drugged up yesterday and could barely think. Luckily, Dr. M knew I was not really functional and didn't force me to make a decision. We talked a lot yesterday afternoon and he gave me options I hadn't considered. We froze 9 embryos today and have 5 in the lab still. On Saturday we will transfer whatever of those survive and if this fails we have enough embryos for 2-3 more cycles. It's a compromise. I'm also doing things Dr. G told me not to, but Dr. M said are ok. I'm going to acupuncture starting tomorrow and drinking coffee to hopefully help with the bloating. I only have about a 20% chance of this cycle working, but at least it's a chance. He gave me a 90% overall success rate over the next 3-4 months. I hope I beat the odds and this cycle works, but honestly right now I just want the pain to stop.