Not Ready

This morning I did something I wasn't sure if I could ever do. I went in for my appointment and Dr. G asked if I wanted to start meds today and transfer the 27th, and I said no. I'm not ready yet. So now the plan is that I will call on cycle day 1 whenever I am ready. I'm all cleared and ready to go whenever that time comes. Our embryos are excellent quality and he thinks our chances are great. The hesitation here is just me. I can't do this with Christmas and everything coming up. I need my sanity right now. Maybe in January. It will be soon, but not today.